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| ..after all the talk of renewed vigour and strength...~..
...i woke up to yet another canceled appointment....and that kinda dampen my mood again.~...watever is said the nite b4 seems to be forgotten..~..
...dats how i've always been...~..easily affected by the slightest things..~...weak...
...its right to say that i've truly lost my identity the past few years...somehow or rather....i could no longer recognise myself..~..
...nowadays im hesitant and indecisive...~..from someone used to being looked up to...~...im now a serious wreck...
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...after reading most of her entries...~..i kinda felt ashamed of myself..~...i realised that pple ard had gone thru much more in their life..~..and whats happening ard me kinda pales in comparison..~...so wat the hell has i been doing so far...~...
...i no longer have the conviction and confidence to love another person...
...for now...im happy enuff just to watch you from far...~...
...im weak...~..the least i want is for you to suffer with me..~...
...then again..~..it must be wishful thinking on my part...~...
....do i even have the guts to pursue?....
....do i have the right to tell you....
....that i wanna complete you..?...~.
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| ...~...your intention is seriously unclear to me...~...
...i don't see a need to be dishonest with me..~...
...i really wonder if what i've been doing these past months are wrong...~..and that my intentions were not clear enuff..~..
....disappointment is too mild for me now...~...yet i'm seriously not angry with you...~..
..i thought you would understand me betta...~...
...i guess i'm wrong...~...
...now i wonder...~...who am i to you?.
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| ...an imperfect world full of lies and deceptions..~.
....fcuk up..~.
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| ....心里的失望渐渐地加深...~...也许一开始.....我就已经走错了....~..
...到头来...我又能怪谁呢?....~..
...是自己太天真?...还是太执着?..
...最近我在想...~...这些年来....~...我一心一意地对待周围的朋友...~...伸出援手...~...到头来得到的却是失望...有时甚至背叛....~....
...是否是我太随和?...感觉上我已变成了便利贴...~...这样的性格会一直维持下去吗?
...我希望能狠下心...重新改造自己...~..
...i do not need ungrateful pple in my life..~...
...~..i will learn to say no..~..
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| ....~....troubled...~..
....the younger one smiled at me...~...and stretched out his arms...."bao bao"....~...
...the older one...tugged at my shorts and reached for my hands...~...even though both my hands are soiled with charcoal...~..
...its like a bond is established in just a split second...~...
...both are amazingly adorable..~...
...they need to grow up in the right environment....~.....for now...its simply not happening...~..
...~...i feel tired...~....i told myself that the line has to be drawn somehow....certain things must change..~..
....but somehow or rather...~...the kids are pulling me back..~...
...its a contradicting feeling..~..
...wat do i do?...rather....what can i do?....
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